Failures and bold steps

After an intense fall of internship applications and going through recruiting processes, I’m finally back!

If I learned anything from it, I think it is the detrimental fact that the experience of people who have experienced rejection and failure has never been valued as much as it should be. Of course, we only want to talk about our successes, not failures because we want to look good in front of other people and feel good about ourselves. And we want to learn from people’s successful experiences in the hope of being closer to succeeding ourselves.

But really, throughout all the years you’ve lived you must have known at least one “Big Head”, haven’t you? Some person who has absolutely no talent or tried nearly as hard as you have, but seems to get all the things everyone’s been dying for at school/work because of pure luck? These people, even though they might be in the exact right position to do so, can’t provide any valuable information for how to try and advance in something for all of us who’ve kept our faith in hard work and persistence. As a student and job seeker I’ve been asking around for advice at career fairs, career experts, industry professionals and online – I can only say I really am disappointed in all the generic job search advice and resume tips (easily obtainable from the Internet) I got from them so far. Don’t let these people’s bullSh*t bother you even a tad bit.

I was informed today that I wasn’t offered an internship at Twitter this summer despite that I have prepared for my interviews for a month beforehand. I had so much fun talking to the best engineers and fellow candidates and absolutely everything seemed to have gone so well. Here’s the important part, though: I watched all of CS Dojo (YK Sugishita)’s videos and went through his Udemy course all as part of my prep. Besides the superb coding interview prep videos, I was awed and fascinated by YK’s story as a former Google software engineer and now a full-time YouTube content maker who dedicated his time to help a growing number of candidates succeed in their next coding interview. Here’s one of his countless inspiring videos on this topic:


I’m not really the only person who deserved all the good things because I worked so hard and the world is unfair to only me. I mean just look at him. Why in the world would he quit his perfect job at Google to making YouTube videos full time which guarantees no decent income? He tried so hard to go through all the trouble of getting a job at Google and then just went and inflicted that “failure” on himself! This makes me believe that any successful person in the long term who has built up credibility and won the trust and likes of others would probably never go around and flaunt their achievements first thing when they make first impressions. And anyone who would accept you no matter what and appreciate whoever you are will never judge you even when you share all your failures with them. This is why YK is such a great mentor and has so many followers. He encourages people to take bold steps. Why can’t anyone who’s in the position of offering guidance to our students be just a little more like him?

From YK, my research and interviews with Twitter engineers, I’ve reflected and learned a million times more from my failures over the past two months than I have from seemingly helpful tips from recruiters at career fairs.

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